Creativity takes courage
~ Henri Matisse
When it comes to being courageous, in private I have scaled mountains.
My life has been hampered by ill health ~ It's boring story, so I'm not going to go into it here, but it has meant, despite being half way through my forties, I've not got very far with my creative endeavours.
I left school with not much on paper and limped into part-time work. It was only when I fell ill again, this time with M.E., that my life paused once more and I rediscovered my creative passions. While the illness left me quite debilitated, in time I could pick up a pencil without it feeling like a lead weight (yeah, it was that bad) and I started to learn how to draw (and later paint) from books and TV programmes. I also started writing again.
In a way I have a lot to thank the M.E. for, but mostly it's a thorn in my side (I'm miles better than I used to be, but I still get tired and that can have consequences.) ~ My life does read like I'm one of Jane Austen's sickly minor characters than one of her feisty heroines. Still, it's my path, I've learnt a lot from it and it's made me who I am. I feel I'm not too shabby in the art department and my writing seems to please.
However, in public my creative courage has me slowly ambling up foothills, and stopping for a cuppa half way up.
I am a highly creative person, I know this about myself, and I've embraced it ~ perhaps a little too tightly. I've had creative freedom for years, I've not had anyone else to please, and while that's awesome, you do get to the point when you reach a fork in the road. Do I start building towards creative goals? Or do I keep my creativity as a private passion? I found myself wanting the former.
Be Committed? I could do that.
Got enough Ideas? I have those in abundance.
Implementation? Sure, how hard could it be? (This I was a tad naive about - short answer: it can be hard.)
Share your work with the others; put your work out there? Hang-on... Show other people?
I am a creative magpie, an ideas machine and a complete wuss!
Hence, why I've tried blogging and given up; tried finishing a novel and given up; tried selling art work and given up... did I give up because I failed - nope. I got readers for my blog, won and was short listed for my writing, and actually sold some of my art. Yep, I don't know why I gave up either.
I probably need to see a shrink.
Or I need to listen to Matisse, and accept that creativity takes courage. Courage to start. Courage to learn. Courage to do. Courage to share. Courage to fail. And Courage to succeed.
This is not a one time deal either. It'll always take courage - true creative freedom is when you know this, and be creative anyway.
So, I've started blogging again, started writing again and started being all arty-farty again too.
Do you find it easy to be courageous in your creativity? If so, I applaud you (really, I do), please share your wisdom in the comments. If not, it would be great to hear your story and how you deal with it x